UDF guy

For a short while I lived in a small, rural town about an hour north east of the capital. The town itself is very small and old fashioned and the population is even smaller and more old fashioned. I was living in the upstairs apartment of an old house and about a five minute walk from this house was a United Dairy Farmers gas station. It was at this UDF that I first laid eyes on UDF guy.

UDF guy is a twenty something whose name I think is Ryan. Maybe I read it on his name tag or maybe he just looks like a Ryan to me. Whatever the case, I have been infatuated with UDF guy since I first saw him. He is probably about five feet, 10 or 11 inches tall. He's got shaggy dark brown hair and very light skin. He's incredibly thin and has a long face with a squared jaw. His eyes are a very clear blue.

I hadn't been to that specific gas station in months until last night. It seems like it must have been fate that I go there at that specific time on that specific day because when I pulled up, there he was, in all his UDF glory, putting something back in one of the refrigerator doors that holds all the soda. When I walked in he hurried to get behind the counter and smiled at me. I almost died. Seriously, I almost dropped dead right there in the doorway. I could have fallen face down on that grungy little mat they have when you walk in, all because he smiled when he saw me. ANYWAY I got all silly and giggly and wasted a good amount of time meandering around because I wanted to continue staring at him. When I finally got up to the counter he rang me up and we chit chatted for a bit, which was nice despite the fact that I was smiling like a crazy person. He asked me how I was and I asked him how he was and he smiled and I smiled. His hair was a lot longer since I had last been there and I looked a lot better, two very good things, in my opinion.

I think UDF guy might also have a long-term crush on me. I'm not going to go into detail, but I can just feel it. I feel it in my bones. I will say this, though: He goes out of his way to be the one to ring me up and he always smiles when he sees me and sometimes we talk about more than the massive amount of Lemonheads I buy from them. One time the shelf didn't have any Lemonheads on it and he helped me look up and down the store to see if they had any more. I'm going to go ahead and say that the aforementioned incident shows that he has taken a liking to me.

I have been crushing on this gas station guy for almost four years now and I think it's about time he make a move. Even in his little apron he is still sexy. Maybe even more than sexy because he can look sexy with an apron on. ANYWAY I used to fantasize all the time that we would just get down to business when I came in. I would still like that to happen. This is the best I have looked in a long time. It seems right. Especially since now I'm single. I still feel very obligated to Shain, mainly because I think we're going to get married one day, but I wouldn't mind throwing my book of morals out the window of my car while I was driving down State Route 3 to get to that gas station for a night with UDF guy.